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A Message to Garcia (1899)

By Elbert Hubbard

In all this Cuban business there is one man stands out on the horizon of my memory like Mars at perihelion. When war broke out between Spain & the United States, it was very necessary to communicate quickly with the leader of the Insurgents. Garcia was somewhere in the mountain vastness of Cuba- no one knew where. No mail nor telegraph message could reach him. The President must secure his cooperation, and quickly.

What to do!

Some one said to the President, "There’s a fellow by the name of Rowan will find Garcia for you, if anybody can."

Rowan was sent for and given a letter to be delivered to Garcia. How "the fellow by the name of Rowan" took the letter, sealed it up in an oil-skin pouch, strapped it over his heart, in four days landed by night off the coast of Cuba from an open boat, disappeared into the jungle, & in three weeks came out on the other side of the Island, having traversed a hostile country on foot, and delivered his letter to Garcia, are things I have no special desire now to tell in detail.

The point I wish to make is this: McKinley gave Rowan a letter to be delivered to Garcia; Rowan took the letter and did not ask, "Where is he at?" By the Eternal! there is a man whose form should be cast in deathless bronze and the statue placed in every college of the land. It is not book-learning young men need, nor instruction about this and that, but a stiffening of the vertebrae which will cause them to be loyal to a trust, to act promptly, concentrate their energies: do the thing- "Carry a message to Garcia!"

General Garcia is dead now, but there are other Garcias.

No man, who has endeavored to carry out an enterprise where many hands were needed, but has been well nigh appalled at times by the imbecility of the average man- the inability or unwillingness to concentrate on a thing and do it. Slip-shod assistance, foolish inattention, dowdy indifference, & half-hearted work seem the rule; and no man succeeds, unless by hook or crook, or threat, he forces or bribes other men to assist him; or mayhap, God in His goodness performs a miracle, & sends him an Angel of Light for an assistant. You, reader, put this matter to a test: You are sitting now in your office- six clerks are within call.

Summon any one and make this request: "Please look in the encyclopedia and make a brief memorandum for me concerning the life of Correggio".

Will the clerk quietly say, "Yes, sir," and go do the task?

On your life, he will not. He will look at you out of a fishy eye and ask one or more of the following questions:

Who was he?

Which encyclopedia?

Where is the encyclopedia?

Was I hired for that?

Don’t you mean Bismarck?

What’s the matter with Charlie doing it?

Is he dead?

Is there any hurry?

Shan’t I bring you the book and let you look it up yourself?

What do you want to know for?

And I will lay you ten to one that after you have answered the questions, and explained how to find the information, and why you want it, the clerk will go off and get one of the other clerks to help him try to find Garcia- and then come back and tell you there is no such man. Of course I may lose my bet, but according to the Law of Average, I will not.

Now if you are wise you will not bother to explain to your "assistant" that Correggio is indexed under the C’s, not in the K’s, but you will smile sweetly and say, "Never mind," and go look it up yourself.

And this incapacity for independent action, this moral stupidity, this infirmity of the will, this unwillingness to cheerfully catch hold and lift, are the things that put pure Socialism so far into the future. If men will not act for themselves, what will they do when the benefit of their effort is for all? A first-mate with knotted club seems necessary; and the dread of getting "the bounce" Saturday night, holds many a worker to his place.

Advertise for a stenographer, and nine out of ten who apply, can neither spell nor punctuate- and do not think it necessary to.

Can such a one write a letter to Garcia?

"You see that bookkeeper," said the foreman to me in a large factory.

"Yes, what about him?"

"Well he’s a fine accountant, but if I’d send him up town on an errand, he might accomplish the errand all right, and on the other hand, might stop at four saloons on the way, and when he got to Main Street, would forget what he had been sent for."

Can such a man be entrusted to carry a message to Garcia?

We have recently been hearing much maudlin sympathy expressed for the "downtrodden denizen of the sweat-shop" and the "homeless wanderer searching for honest employment," & with it all often go many hard words for the men in power.

Nothing is said about the employer who grows old before his time in a vain attempt to get frowsy ne’er-do-wells to do intelligent work; and his long patient striving with "help" that does nothing but loaf when his back is turned. In every store and factory there is a constant weeding-out process going on. The employer is constantly sending away "help" that have shown their incapacity to further the interests of the business, and others are being taken on. No matter how good times are, this sorting continues, only if times are hard and work is scarce, the sorting is done finer- but out and forever out, the incompetent and unworthy go.

It is the survival of the fittest. Self-interest prompts every employer to keep the best- those who can carry a message to Garcia.

I know one man of really brilliant parts who has not the ability to manage a business of his own, and yet who is absolutely worthless to any one else, because he carries with him constantly the insane suspicion that his employer is oppressing, or intending to oppress him. He cannot give orders; and he will not receive them. Should a message be given him to take to Garcia, his answer would probably be, "Take it yourself."

Tonight this man walks the streets looking for work, the wind whistling through his threadbare coat. No one who knows him dare employ him, for he is a regular fire-brand of discontent. He is impervious to reason, and the only thing that can impress him is the toe of a thick-soled No. 9 boot.

Of course I know that one so morally deformed is no less to be pitied than a physical cripple; but in our pitying, let us drop a tear, too, for the men who are striving to carry on a great enterprise, whose working hours are not limited by the whistle, and whose hair is fast turning white through the struggle to hold in line dowdy indifference, slip-shod imbecility, and the heartless ingratitude, which, but for their enterprise, would be both hungry & homeless.

Have I put the matter too strongly? Possibly I have; but when all the world has gone a-slumming I wish to speak a word of sympathy for the man who succeeds- the man who, against great odds has directed the efforts of others, and having succeeded, finds there’s nothing in it: nothing but bare board and clothes.

I have carried a dinner pail & worked for day’s wages, and I have also been an employer of labor, and I know there is something to be said on both sides. There is no excellence, per se, in poverty; rags are no recommendation; & all employers are not rapacious and high-handed, any more than all poor men are virtuous.

My heart goes out to the man who does his work when the "boss" is away, as well as when he is at home. And the man who, when given a letter for Garcia, quietly take the missive, without asking any idiotic questions, and with no lurking intention of chucking it into the nearest sewer, or of doing aught else but deliver it, never gets "laid off," nor has to go on a strike for higher wages. Civilization is one long anxious search for just such individuals. Anything such a man asks shall be granted; his kind is so rare that no employer can afford to let him go. He is wanted in every city, town and village- in every office, shop, store and factory. The world cries out for such: he is needed, & needed badly- the man who can carry a message to Garcia.

i'm not kidding

panic

character design of the new chipmunks movie almost gave me a panic attack in the subway the first time i saw it. and also, all other times.

also, i was going to make DESTROYCHRISTMASTOSAVETIMALLEN.COM. But christmas is already dead.


this is why.



ring tonez

dave = tupac
olivia = teenage wildlife
breanne = red magic
sarah = every breath you take
sarah = out of africa sound track. duh.
peter = fennezs again.

DUH, we knew that, i'm gonna go eat a sanwich

Net dumbs us down: Nobel prize winner - web - Technology - smh.com.au

my name is Philip Owl Tortillachips

new york new york new york

business mind. it's crazy here. I live in wrapped in innersectionxz in a high tower. at least we have coffee up here. and too many cigarettes. but nice views. i have two lamps that help me make techno music. someone told me today it sounds like it's techno before techno music. i think that's a good idea. can i get a job making prehistoric trance music? ok, good.

i just watched eragon

Holy crap i want to be psychic. I think my sister and I are going to do a remake where we just cut all the running shots from lotr and eragon together to create a 20 minute long short film about travel in new zealand. I'm also registering the domain McLordofTheRings.com. That was awful. highlights did include John Malkovich saying more or less: I'M MAD!!! twice. I think that those were the only two shots of him in the movie. Psychic powers are awesome tho. When I get a girlfriend I hope her name is Google Earth.

morse code

it is a grey day, and the mind moves as a metal slug. animal and mineral. death and sluggish motion

its not like me, i'm depressed.

it's cold enough in my apartment to make my index finger of my right hand numb. just at the tip. i feel pretty weird. i don't feel like there will be enough time in the up coming year to do justice to what needs to be done. as far as reading... writing.. making. drinking. yeah. the irony of this is that, that's part of the reason why art is important right now. well, craft specifically, but art in how it facilitates craft. the world is really fast. re: keyword: expedite etc et al. craft is a way of slowing down into a process. there is no how in making when your computer loads the web page. there is no affect to the way your car consumes gasoline. i wish there would be enough time to do everything to the perfection it neccesitates. to slow down into every step of every task. you know, the zen people have been telling us to do this for thousands of years. it's just alot more pertinent now i guess. i'm rambling. i'm going to go take a power shower.

providence ourTunes users watch out!

RIAA goes after actual pirates; dead grandmothers everywhere breathe sigh of relief

providence gets put up there with miami!

no but seriously, elsewhere in ars technica there's an article about how clear channel will actually steal your music. amazing.

FALL 2005 work round up

List of Works

1. Naked Pictures
2. Semi-functional Musical Instruments
3. Vikings and Babies!


This is a nickle that says celebrity instead of liberty.

This is a group of pictures that took where i posed naked and projected images of actresses from Us Weekly magazine onto my body.









this last one i eunuch-ized out of sanitation and modesty. although, initially i was just curous as to how it would change the picture if the obvious gender reference was removed.


This is the borgan. I don't know if that's it's actual name yet but this is what it looks like.

It is an excercise bike that powers a sort of organ. One without a keyboard. It does have organ pipes though. It's kind of more a set of bagpipes. But those are playable. This is only playable by pedaling the pedals and pumping the hands. It's late.







i have a movie of the borgan too. it's here. the sound isn't very good. i'm going to make it stronger and louder.


This is what my desk looks like at the end of the semester. god i love having a blog!


This is Elliot. He does not approve of my paparazzisms.


John Berry however, was very excited about the organ.


THis is a poster that we made for the digital media department. I hope it draws more people to come and work with us.

John Berry crucified my phone one day. if you can't read the text it says "jesus phone get crossed"

I am sad that i don't have my friends from back home around. So i have tear drops.



this is what the max guy looks like when he get's laserrrred.


This is a map of the internet

borgan schematics.



more borgan schematics



a design for the table to support the pistons..

notes for a talk i gave about datamapping and powerpoint.

it was an odd and only semi-functional investigation into the relationship between powerpoint and people that do stuff with datamapping. specifically Edward Tufte, Martin Wattenberg, and Benjamin Fry along with a look at David Byrne.

I'm interested in the sort of inversion that happens to a minute amount of data that is translated in a social context via the "map" of a powerpoint presentation versus the huge fields of dynamic data that can be delivered very rapidly using visual data-mapping techniques. Data-mapping can be used in a powerpoint presentation to present alot of data very quickly, and basically this is what simple graphs and pie charts do, but they only present a very generalized feel for information if the user cannot browse them in the way that modern dynamic data-mapping allows.

THese are max patches that i wrote while i was here. this pink one is a program to use a nomal keyboard sideways as a controller for some beat cutup software that i wrote. i'll probably put up an ep of that stuff soon. it's pretty fun to use. I really like the way perry hoberman uses keyboard in one of his pieces.. i can't remember which one it is.

this is the very beginnings of another interface that i am developing for generating many many parameters of control from just 2 input parameters on a cartesian grid. it's gonna be awesome. it relates to the idea shared by a few electronic music composers that electronic instruments can have the same versatility and expression that a normal instrument does, it's a matter of mapping simple input parameters to complex output parameters which is what this sets out to do.


This is Sensory Overlord



this is cordero of the lopez


and his shirt.

arvid is a genius and put much much of the video together.


this is also arvid

stefan created a prog keyboard solo max patch just for this performance! it was amazing. he is perfecting the art here.

this is pretty much the status quo for me when i am near my computer. go figure.

this just in! man posts to blog after 6 years!

final crit ruminations:

i really like folding things. these little bellows are awesome. the word bellow is super awesome.

i hope the organ works. i need to try to get a minor seventh out of that pipe or a 6th. i should make a max patch that figures what i could get out it. it would be super easy to do.

i was just thinking about seats that were also sound objects. like they had springs attached to tons of tin cans that made noise or something.

what else did i think about today. today was the day of trailing things out the door and out of my bag. i left the house without my glasses or my mouse or my correct gloves. the last part was an experiment. i guess today could be called the day of three gloves. i started with one pair. got the second when i came back after dropping off my minidisc player and got the third when leon offered to let me borrow his. totally awesome guy.

i'm stoked i got the big pipes from home depot. it feels so gross going there and making things and being like. yep, here's my thing that i made that looks like it's from home depot because it is because i'm too busy to find other things that are radder. having a car would be a good thing. i could still do it. if you just went whenever you want. you could get a little toyota truck. then you'd be the guy with the truck. f that get a fucking scirocco. that'd be off the off.

georges class. making connections to calvinism in my mirror thing.

plants are awesome too. that's why i like green. kelly kelly green.

dudeeeeeeeeeeeeee............

i totally haven't posted forever. i did give a really crappy presentation today on a bunch of random stuff. my eyes hurt. i had dreams that i had leeches on me last night that were the size of clams. yck.

leech clam

sunday is truly the lord's day.

the gaze

wow. i just found a john cage cd that my roomate owns of a piano piece that i used to play in undergrad. it's called in a landscape. really simple and beautiful.

so today is sunday. i woke up only mildly hungover after quite an evening of drinking and dance. andrew has decided to rename providence "providaaance." the textual interpretation is mine but it's supposed pronounced with and "on" like in font. providoncé. any way, so i went shopping for food so i can actually eat and ended up getting side tracked into olneyville. that place rules. i actually saw a sign that was hand painted and had a dragon ball z character on it that said "olneyville rules."

my point.

is that i found this little indoor flea market that had all this junk in it. it was pretty cool. nothing spectacular but a few things gave me pause for speculation. for example, why is it that the typical flea market vendor is often found selling cheap taiwanese large ornimental knives and blankets with cartoon character / fantasy themes on them? i do not know. actually i think it's because there is one distrubutor for both of these types of items. why they buy them both and sell them together? i do not know that. next item.

directly across from BLANKETS&KNIVES-R-US was a vendor selling alot of little fountains. many of them had large marble balls floating on a pool of water, just to the point where the ball was elevated enough to roll. there was even one of a fish spitting water onto the ball while it was doing this... clever. but it made me realize the whole thing about perfectly efficient machines. we don't have them. at least not yet. but wouldn't it be easier to overcome friction in space? i'll have to ask neil. because, if you combined say, a frictionless energy generator that was near 100% efficient, with this: www.spaceelevator.com/, we could have something. you just run a power line up to the top and farm away. that could be supercool.

and then there was the point of writing this down. the coolest thing that i saw was this one old guy sitting amongst all this electronic junk. he had a original nintendo and a bunch of other consoles and an old ginormous multi-meter. that thing probably wieghed about 40 pounds. any way, in the back of his little stall, there was a little tv hooked up to a ps1. not the orginal playstation with the boxy design but the one that is super small and looks like a lozenge of some kind. any way, the tv was on and the guy must have been in the middle of a game and stopped, because the character on the screen (it was some sort of quasi 3d side scrolling game with a human / tiger hybrid martial arts dude) was just sitting there rocking back and forth in front of the entrance to a buddhist temple. every now and again he would look behind him as if to check if anyone was following him. but obviously he was alone in the section of the game. it seemed like it was random when he would look behind him because every so often he would do it 3 or 4 times right in a row. i don't know if i'm explaining this effectively, but it was a really bizzare and subtle aesthetic experience. teri said the phrase "returning the gaze" recently in class i think in reference to feminine confrontation of male objectification of the female body. maybe it was christiane? it seemed to me that this small tv was returning the gaze and that's what videogames do. they are visual programs. the logic clicks and shutters at 50hz right in front of your eyes. and it's staring back at you. i sat there watching this video game watching me. waiting for something to happen while this mancat wobbled back and forth in his fighting stance entirely outside of time. i don't know what the moral to the story is. but i begrudgingly agree with our professor george fifield about the potential of the videogame for art. i just wonder if we will get lost forever in these experiences outside of time and ourselves. and where do the people fit that don't get to play these games?

what makes videogames fun?

race game = so much speed you can't think about anything else. you are pushed to the limites of your reaction time.

fight game = you are pitted against something else and you must use hand eye coordination to effectively do combinations to beat your opponent.

adventure game = you get to play someone else and enter a fairy tale more or less. you get to succeed in an alternative life. just like d&d.

what makes real games fun?

how does the logic of games in general arise from who we where before civilization? before culture? what is culture? yar.

yep

some time you should ask me about my autobiography

are you lovers?

a continuous list of complaints

the fact that risla disburses loans on monday and wednesday and risd disburses loans on tuesdays and thursdays

the fact that cingular just changed their voicemail software so i have to dial my 10 digit phone number into my own phone just to get my messages.

the fact that an imac g5 *actually* sounds like a radio controlled gas powered model plane at a distance of about 10 yards.

the fact that to save a multi-document pdf in illustrator you have to print(!?) to pdf.?!?

more to follow.

why do i have a blog?

it's all well and good that i jot all this shit down about what we are learning. i could for intents and purposes go away and just keep up with chris robbins blog and elliots. i wonder what john baca's is all about. there is this wierd pull that keeps things going and i want to make my blog this virtual version of me. is that the fucking gibson total digitization desire. why am i in this fucking wind tunnel? i feel wierd.

but i was saying that even though i can write and write and write. the ideas are only going to come so much. AH, and in some cases they just come from doing. so let's do BOTH. lets do the organ and lets do the us weekly and let's do the everything else.

I LOVE PDFS. i dont know why. i will make many in my time.

incidentally, i'm going to be using the word incidentally alot. you go to k10k everynow again and see all the good design stuff that's going on and you realize that more and more junk is being generated everyday on the interrrrrrrrrrnet. macluhan said we would get to the point that we would only recognize patterns. it's getting that way. how do i effectively generate data in this tundra of digital detritus. in a format that is legible for myself and others? i don't know if a blog is the way to do it.. we shall see.

wow. that's a lot of money

i'll be blunt. this school is expensive. and while i observe my professors continuously refering http://wikipedia.org as a resource for knowledge as i do at home and have literally for years before i came here, i wonder what i am paying for. it's a bit taboo around here. you can feel it in different groups. but i'm not here to complain. i'm here to learn. in reading the first chapter of technopoly by neil postman, one thing was highlighted that i thought was good. he outlines the way technological change is really fought out in the classroom. the role of tv and visual media in altering young mentalities. but when he comes to the computer, all that is implied is an isolated world of egotism and private learning... this is doesn't seem to be the case around here. granted i may be writing this to an audience of 3, but we do pay attention to each other's logs and ideas. it's interesting for me to see the way we generate html content as our education progresses. this can only result in profusion of the knowledge we have and we are building. hmm... if writing is the process of pushing your mind into the world, looking at the internet is the process of pushing the world (the warped interweb world) into your mind? we sit for long long long long long long long long long long long long periods of time looking at these light boxes. that get smaller and smaller. and all we do is open our eyes wider and wider and we see less and less far away, what does it mean. myopia is a good and pertinent word. now if i can just figure out what i'm rebeling against. that being said, i really would like to make things that exist in the real world. but at the same time, contain the ideas that we have developed from this continuous social experiment that we are all in the middle of. i think that's why i want to make this organ thing. i gotta go.

why do i live on the internet?

i think i'm in love.

well okay.

so last night i went to a show at as220. san serrac and miss fairchild. they were both pretty much off the chain, but miss fairchild turned it out. they all look like they are about 12 but it is evident that they have a deep understanding of how to move a dancefloor. it's beautiful and sort of painful to watch people being so effortlessly talented. it doesn't frame my jaded/california laidback attitude well. i guess i have to get better at something... uuuuuuuuh

tonight

for dinner, i ate beers. and i figured out what my job is. ask me later.

things i should be doing.

um... yah.

i think because i am lost i keep making lists. i want a map so that i can see where i "should" be here in this new environment.. i don't know if that will help though. i will try. so this semester i will:

write a bunch of papers.
build an organ out of an exercise bike and some other stuff
take a bunch of pictures of myself nude or almost nude
hopefully make some music.
write some max programs.
read alot
decide whether i am actually going to be an artist or not.
try to actually listen to people more. yah
learn processing and flash and bla bla blah.

basic stamp programming is pretty awesome. i need to start thinking about some applications. like the following:

a bunch of clickers for people to make a really loud sound. it would be good if this was totally mechanical. we shall see. it will probably have to be connected to a computer. tho audio synthesis on a basic stamp is pretty cool.

piezo buzzer collection for controlling max to do wierd things. connect the freaking dots.

yo know what i just found out? there are mice that come out at night to walk all over my clean dishes and shit on them. f those mice.

what do i do with this class?

okay. this is the deal. i'm not really into my brown performance class. it's very much focused on dance and theatre performance and not really on what i am interested in. i'm more interested in how i can push deeper into a barely explored performance practice based on the little objects i have made in max. i’m interested in these:

not looking at the computer
a meeting of precomposition and improvisation
voice based control
rainbo glitch trauma lover. kissbleed envelope cut moving down clouds
tempo change
breath
form shock
short + right long

AH! i know what it is. or at least in part.

really because music is the most direct route to contending with my personal sense of aesthetics, i evade it with the sense of a ninja who can vanish into mist. i don’t want to look at them. and school is a very effective sheen for obscuring that which i actually want to do. because i am afraid. remind me, you who read my blog, that i *want* to make music and that’s what this is about. that’s what this WHOLE thing is about.

SO++i

how can we make this pansy ass dance class about what the fuck i actually want to do.

break down your desires into components and see if you can "out-source" them to this class to use the jargon of my southern bay area brethren.

i could make some patches with the noise < > beauty continuum that i am always thinking about. i could develop a series of voice analysis algorithms that i could use in my own work. i just want bang up sound like what. i don't know how much space i need, but it seems like alot. just keep putting it some place. the music.

i woke up early (5:15am)

so two among the river of thoughts i had this morning:

how can i make a space that facillitates experimentation and ease of use in creating music?
i think that means that i need a keyboard. or somesort of input device for pushing sound around in this box.
a variety of microphones
a couple different instruments. prefrerably a bass guitar and a synthesizer.
a good space for letting things get messy. a good work table.the thing is, i can make it go. i've put together a fair amount of sound using the system that's evolved out of my addictioni to
protools and my use of max based apps. it's just that it doesn't feel very free right now. hmm..what can i do in creating media?

make videos
make websites
make posters
make fonts
make music
make poetry
create dictionaries
create a school
tutorials
write novels
write a diary
create a network of people
make robots
make installations
make sculpture
do performance
invent new technologies / ;medias
criticize old technologies / medias let's boil it down
i can make content for people to consume
i can make a tool for people to create content for people to consume
i can make a medium to define the way content is created for people to consume
i can make objects that will record / or transmit content for people to consume.

uff. consume. that's a dirty dirty word.

a good sunday

the sirens in providence are strangely obnoxious. i'm obsessed with sirens right now because i think i am going to build one out of a bike and some stuff. it's probably going to be more akin to an organ in terms of acoustic technology but philosophically it's kind of a siren. i dont' know why but i have also been thinking about gang banger fashion alot because i live on the edge of a "ghetto."

things that inspire me right now
• this blog
• spitting metal buttons in a pan (it's homework) • finding ways to make music making more fluid and natural with my laptop.
• the books/prefuse ep
• lifestyle by bruce mau. even tho everyone and thr moms likes the manifesto. me too.

at some point i will write down the different ideas for projects i am startings.

xoxo