it's cold enough in my apartment to make my index finger of my right hand numb. just at the tip. i feel pretty weird. i don't feel like there will be enough time in the up coming year to do justice to what needs to be done. as far as reading... writing.. making. drinking. yeah. the irony of this is that, that's part of the reason why art is important right now. well, craft specifically, but art in how it facilitates craft. the world is really fast. re: keyword: expedite etc et al. craft is a way of slowing down into a process. there is no how in making when your computer loads the web page. there is no affect to the way your car consumes gasoline. i wish there would be enough time to do everything to the perfection it neccesitates. to slow down into every step of every task. you know, the zen people have been telling us to do this for thousands of years. it's just alot more pertinent now i guess. i'm rambling. i'm going to go take a power shower.