okay. this is the deal. i'm not really into my brown performance class. it's very much focused on dance and theatre performance and not really on what i am interested in. i'm more interested in how i can push deeper into a barely explored performance practice based on the little objects i have made in max. i’m interested in these:

not looking at the computer
a meeting of precomposition and improvisation
voice based control
rainbo glitch trauma lover. kissbleed envelope cut moving down clouds
tempo change
breath
form shock
short + right long

AH! i know what it is. or at least in part.

really because music is the most direct route to contending with my personal sense of aesthetics, i evade it with the sense of a ninja who can vanish into mist. i don’t want to look at them. and school is a very effective sheen for obscuring that which i actually want to do. because i am afraid. remind me, you who read my blog, that i *want* to make music and that’s what this is about. that’s what this WHOLE thing is about.

SO++i

how can we make this pansy ass dance class about what the fuck i actually want to do.

break down your desires into components and see if you can "out-source" them to this class to use the jargon of my southern bay area brethren.

i could make some patches with the noise < > beauty continuum that i am always thinking about. i could develop a series of voice analysis algorithms that i could use in my own work. i just want bang up sound like what. i don't know how much space i need, but it seems like alot. just keep putting it some place. the music.